Crushing Blow – Tears in Heaven

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Three days ago,  Lacey passed away.  I can’t get over it.   There were warnings signs,  like loss of balance and then losing control over her hind legs.  About an hour later she made noises and then had a loss of bowels in the kitchen.  I yelled at her and put her in the litter box.  A few moments later she fell to her side.  Never got her chance the to stand ever again.

I became scared.  I was panicked and cried.  A few minutes later she died in my arms.  I am in grief and hurt and angry.  No, I am pissed.  At the unfairness.  By the way,  she was 18 years old.   Still the pain was like a dagger in the heart.   I will her so much.  She was skin and bones but very sweet.  I love her still.  Not sure I will get over this.  Sorry for errors,  but I have epilepsy and typing is horrible.

R.I.P.  Lacey.  We will meet in heaven.

 

12 thoughts on “Crushing Blow – Tears in Heaven

  1. It really is a physical pain. No matter how you rationalise age or infirmity – letting go HURTS. I wish I could tell you some magic words that would comfort you. It’s truly so very hard saying goodbye.

  2. I echo the sentiments mentioned above, the hardest part to sharing your life with furry family is having to say good-bye; perhaps you can create something to celebrate Lacey’s life & her bond with you. When I had to say goodbye to my 8 year old Newfoundland I made a memorial video set to the music “Into The West” by Annie Lennox…it was very therapeutic and I know he will never be forgotten! Prayers for you as you grieve and heal.

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