When want people to see us, we want them to see us, at our best. But who is really ‘good’? And problems? Everyone has those too. Our goodness is relative anyway and goodness does not assure us of a totally happy existence. And besides, what do we really know about each other?
Have you heard about the person who ALWAYS speaks his or her mind? Usually they have very few friends and acquaintances who trust them. And why do we tell people secrets, as if we already knew they wouldn’t keep them? Do we really enjoy the excitement of drama that is against us?
And how many times have we presumed to know what would be just a hypothetical? That we would do such and such and say it always ‘them’? The truth is, we are all deceptive to one degree or another and this includes an inherent total depravity. None of us wants to hear of our own weaknesses and dare I say it, potential for evil?
Let’s face it, we do at one point or another covet, whether it is a person, a place or a thing. That idyllic little something that would bring clarity and fulfillment and we would also do anything to get it? I am no better and probably worse. Though it is probably something that no one knows about. Maybe some kinky sexual fantasy or an sudden impulse to break something.
It is also hard to accept that God may not want us. He may simply pass us by and our relative goodness and our accumulated wealth would be for naught. I believe at the very least we can have some perspective about us and others, not assuming that our ‘goodness’ was not something intrinsic in us and that make our forever more agreeable.
The only intrinsic beauty is God. A God who knows himself, yet at the same time loves us. He loves who he loves and who he doesn’t for whatever reasons is the way it is. I am not being cavalier or judging your relative goodness or badness, except to say, we should practice good with God’s grace.
My cousin died at 22. He was a very good man and it seems a shame. But my opinion could never save him, due to an intrinsic flaw in all of us. Look at story of the kids on an island. At first life was harmonious but then human nature began to shape as it really is. All I can say is be good and be humble and contrite. And I am not saying be sad and that you cannot be happy most of the time, but take it from me, I am okay yet just as corrupt as anyone else, give or take.